“The greatest preparation for entering death in a conscious state is to first enter pain consciously, because death does not occur often, it does not come every day. Death will come only once, whether you are prepared for it or not; there cannot be a rehearsal for death. But pain and misery come every day.
We can prepare ourselves while going through pain and suffering – and remember if we can do so while facing them, it will prove useful at the time of death.
“Hence, seekers have always welcomed suffering. There is no other reason for it. It is not that suffering is a good thing. The reason is simply that suffering provides the seeker with an opportunity for self-preparation, self-attainment. A seeker has always thanked God for the suffering he undergoes, for the simple reason that, in moments of misery, he gets a chance to disidentify himself from his body.
“Remember, Sadhana, spiritual discipline is a little difficult to follow when you are happy. It is easier when you are miserable, because in moments of happiness one doesn’t want to have even the slightest feeling of separation from one’s body. When you are happy the body feels very dear to you; you don’t feel like being detached from it for even an inch.
In moments of happiness we move closer to the body; hence it is not surprising that a seeker of happiness becomes a materialist.
“It is also not surprising if a person who is continuously seeking happiness believes himself to be nothing more than his body, because in happy times he begins to exist like a green coconut instead of a dry one – the distance between him and his body narrows down.
“In moments of pain one wishes he were not the body. Ordinarily, a man who takes himself to be nothing but the body also wishes he were not the body when his head hurts or when his foot is injured or when his body aches.
“He tends to agree with monks all over the world who go about saying, ‘It would have been better if I were not the body.’ Feeling the pain in his body, he becomes eager to somehow find out he is not the body too.
That’s why I say to you, the moments of pain can become moments of spiritual discipline, can be turned into moments of meditation.
“But ordinarily, what do we do?
“Ordinarily, during times of suffering, we try to forget pain. If a man is in trouble, he will drink alcohol. Someone is in pain and he will go and sit in a movie theater. Somebody is miserable and he will try to forget his misery with prayers and devotional songs. These are all different ways and means to forget pain.
“Someone drinks; we can say this is one tactic. Someone goes and watches a movie, this is another. A person goes to a concert; this is a third way of forgetting pain. Somebody goes to the temple and drowns himself in prayers and hymns; this is a fourth strategy.
“There can be a thousand and one strategies – they can be religious, nonreligious, or secular. That’s not a big question. Underneath all this, the basic thing is that man wants to forget his misery. He is into forgetting misery.
A person who wants to forget misery can never wake up to misery.
“How can we become aware of something we tend to forget? Only with an attitude of remembering can we become aware of something. Hence, only by remembering pain can we become aware of it.
“So whenever you are in misery, take it as an opportunity. Be totally aware of it, and you will have a wonderful experience.
When you become fully aware of your suffering, when you look at it face to face, not escaping the pain, you will have a glimpse of your separateness from it.
“For example, you fell, were injured, hurt your foot. Now try to locate the pain inside, try to pinpoint the exact spot where it hurts; you will be astonished to discover how you have managed to spread the pain over a much wider area, away from the original spot, to where its intensity is not so much.
“Man exaggerates his suffering. He magnifies his misery, which is never actually that much. The reason behind this is the same – identification with the body.
“Misery is like the flame of a lamp, but we experience it as the dispersed light of the lamp. Misery is like the flame, limited to a very small section of the body. But we feel it like the extended light of the lamp, covering a much larger area.
Close your eyes and try to locate the pain from inside.
Remember too, we have always known the body from the outside, never from within.
‘Even if you know your body, it is known as others see it. If you have seen your hand, it is always from the outside, but you can feel your hand from within too. It is as if one were to remain contented with seeing his house only from the outside. But there is an inside to the house as well.
“Pain occurs at the inner parts of the body. The point where it hurts is located somewhere in the interior of the body, but the pain spreads to the outer parts of the body. It is like this: the flame of pain is located inside, while the light radiates outward.
“Since we are used to seeing the body from outside, the pain appears to be very spread out. It is a wonderful experience, trying to see the body from inside.
Close your eyes and try to feel and experience what the body is like from within.
“The human body has an inner wall too; it has an inner covering as well. This body has an inner limit too. That inner frontier can certainly be experienced with closed eyes.
“You have seen your hand lifting. Now, close your eyes sometime and lift your hand, and you will experience the hand rising from within. From the outside you have known what it is to be hungry. Close your eyes and experience hunger from within, and for the first time you will be able to feel it from inside.
“As soon as you get hold of the pain from within, two things happen.
“One is, the pain does not remain as widely spread as it originally seemed to be; it immediately centers on a small point. And the more intensely you concentrate on this point, the more you will find it becoming smaller and smaller.
“And an incredible thing happens. When the point becomes very small, you find to your amazement it appears and disappears, goes off and on. Gaps begin to appear in between.
“And finally, when it disappears, you wonder what happened to it.
“Many times you miss it. The point becomes so small, that often when the consciousness tries to locate it, it is not there.
Just as pain expands in a state of unconsciousness, in the state of awareness it narrows down and becomes small.
“In such a state of consciousness the feeling will be that although you have gone through so many painful experiences, although you have lived through so much suffering, yet, in fact, the miseries were not really that many.
We have suffered exaggerated pains.
“The same is true with regard to happiness. The happinesses we have been through were not as many as they seemed to be; we have enjoyed them in an exaggerated form too.
“If one were to enjoy one’s happiness with awareness, we would find that happiness becomes very small too. If we were to live through misery with the same kind of awareness, we would find it becomes very narrow as well.
The greater the awareness, the narrower and smaller the pains and miseries. They become so small that, in a deeper sense, they turn out to be meaningless.
“In fact, their meaning lies in their expansion. They seem to be encompassing one’s entire life. However, when seen through great awareness, they go on narrowing down, ultimately becoming so meaningless they don’t have anything to do with life as such.
“The second thing that will happen is, when you look at your misery very closely, a distance will be created between you and the misery.
“In fact, whenever you look at a thing, immediately a distance is created between you and the thing itself. Seeing causes the distance. No matter what we look at, a distance immediately begins to take place.
If you look closely at your misery, you will find a separation between the misery and you, because only that which is separate from you can be seen.
“Obviously, that which is inseparable from you cannot be seen. One who is aware of his misery, one who is filled with consciousness, one who is full of remembrance, experiences the misery as somewhere else, and he is somewhere at a distance.
“The day a man comes to realize the difference between himself and the misery, as soon as he comes to know his pain is happening somewhere at a distance, the unconsciousness caused by misery ceases to exist.
And once a person comes to understand that the sufferings as well as the happinesses of the body occur elsewhere, that one is merely a knower of them, his identity with the body is severed.
Then he knows he is not the body.”
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Excerpted from Osho, And Now and Here, Talk #12 – Becoming a Witness
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